flames

the moments when the world seemed far away, and the feeling ineffable. pulling me to my core. to feel so alive. why can't i reach that place now? where did you go? who would i be, if something that changed me and brought me those moments, were gone?

how can you weigh against the unknown? how can you make the bet? to go all in? to lose it all... or gain it? when do i fold? life is too much like poker... despite all the thought, the strategy, the patience... it's all still a gamble.